learning

the professional implanted this nugget into my seeping brain last week, and i hope it's there to stay.

judgement.

when we judge, we tend to cut others very little slack, yet we give ourselves a lot more leeway for similar transgressions (or so sayeth the professional).

he's right, of course.

how i hold on. and on. and on. i hold a grudge with the best of them, and i am not really sure where it gets me. does it ensure that i will not be hurt again? of course not. and even if it did, would it be worth the energy that it takes to keep track?

how many times have i had a slip of the tongue, inserted foot into mouth, or just been plain old mean? how many times have i blamed it on low blood sugar pms exhaustion anger annoyance hurt feelings (and hurting back) stress hormones lack of sleep

you name it.

so i move on, forgiving myself and knowing that "i didn't mean it".

i need to be this way with the other people in my life. we are none of us perfect and i really do wonder where my impossible standards come from?